Late Introduction

I guess I should introduce myself. I am a 16 year old girl. You can call me Kena Bee! If you really want to learn about me, read my other posts.

Finding "The One"

As I previously posted, I am not insecure about my looks. I also love myself, personality, yet when I try to imagine my future, I have a hard time imagining someone wanting to be with me for the rest of their lives. I can imagine my future family(which I will probably talk about in another post), but not the husband/boyfriend. Why would anyone want to deal with me? I never had a boyfriend, or even a kiss. I am not that exciting to be with, I am pretty serious in general, and I wouldn't consider myself funny. I'm not especially passionate about anything. I definitely want kids, which hard to do, when you don't have anyone to help with the procreating part. I guess adopting will be in my future! Which I want to do whether I do find "the one". At least I won't have the typical life.  Be born, go to school, Get a boring job, find a guy, marry him, have kids, retire from boring job, die. (recently, an additional step has been added, "get an divorce"). I will just skip over the "get a guy" step, and everything related to that step (e.g. get married). I can't wait until the questions I will be getting. "When will you get yourself a husband?" and "Why haven't you found anyone?" And all the advice! "You just need to put yourself out there more!" and "There is someone for everyone!" "Would you like me to set you up on a date with my older sister's friend's cousin's husband's brother's son? I met him twice and I think he is single." Sure! I would love to meet the guy who you probably know less about then the person who made your Starbucks coffee this morning! I can't wait! Anyway, I don't fear dying alone. If I dead who care how my life was before my death. I think it is better if I die when I don't have a lover. This way, no one is greatly affected by my death. If I was to find "the one", I want to die after them, this way I am the one who has to deal with the grief, not him.  

Have you found "the one"? Are you afraid of dying alone? Why?

Pictures

You should go to my other blog http://ayiphoto.blogspot.com/ , which has a bunch of my pictures! I haven't been updating, but that is mainly because I am lazy, but the stuff that is currently on there is decent! My mother thinks I am pretty good, but I don't think it is amazing.

Do you like Photography? What is your favorite thing about pictures?

Rambling about myself

I do love myself. I am actually not insecure about my looks, I like my crooked teeth, my nearly flat chest, my colorful hearing aids, my glasses. I like the fact that at the age of 16, I look younger than my 14 year old sister. I don't wear any makeup, and I am never worrying about having the cutest clothes. Though I am a bit insecure about my acne, but not enough to smother my face with makeup. Anyway, I am bit of a loner (not a lonely person!) Loner is someone who doesn't mind being alone (in fact they usually like it!). I have no problem with the fact that a majority of my weekends involve me "researching" a random subject online, until I know as much about it as I can. A recent topic was North Korea. Did you know that in N. Korea, which is actually named "The Democratic People's Republic of Korea", each household must have a portrait of all of their leaders (which to date is three). They send someone to check for the "cleanliness" of the portraits, if they are dirty you can get into a lot of trouble. Anyway, other things I do during weekend is watch animes or read mangas. I also read books, which is why I am in a book club. I just finished watching Blue Exorcist. I just spend a lot time on the internet. I don't talk much at school, but at home I talk quite a bit, at least that what my little sister seems to think... "why do you talk so much?" "Can you stop talking?" -my sister

Maybe to make up for the lost time at school? I wish I was home-schooled  but my mother is convinced that kids who are home-schooled are weirdos. Anyway, I would love to, because I would like to learn at my pace, and to be able to learn what I want to learn. If my mother is worried about friends (which she is constantly bugging me about), then it would be better for me to be home-schooled, because I have never hang out with any friends outside of school. I don't really think that my social life can get much worse.

P.S. I guess this blog will be like my diary, except I really don't care who sees this. I am not going out of my way to show this to anyone, but I don't even care if someone like my mother sees this. 

What do you think about ramblers? Do you ramble?